Life is hard.

that much pretty much sums everything up into a neat little basket. dude life sucks for like 98% of the population. you think youve got it bad, theres always someone deeper in it than you.

So your depressed. hey lets smoke a downer for something to do, great idea. idiot. if your so intent on ending your life, stop procrastinating. because thats what smoking is, procrastinating suicide. if you gunna do, just do it. no i dont wanna see someone commit suicide, but if your life is truly that bad (which i doubt, it never is) just go. 

but coming here and saying’ maybe i should do it, that is a cry for help. so help i will offer. take it how you will.

1. stop doing drugs, over the counter and under (legal and less legal) (you are a dollar bill to your doctor. that shit just rots your brains.)

2. eat healthier, no this does not mean go to subway 3 times a day, actually learn how to prepare healthy food within your budget, its not hard, google or youtube it

3. start exercising

4. stop hanging around your loser junkie friends (just making assumptions now)

these four things will put you on a good path, im going to continue but the first four a good first step to having a better life and becoming more mentally stable.

5. shower twice a day (includes: shower, shave, brush your teeth)

6. get a reasonable haircut, once ever two months is suitable. once a month is better.

7. get a job, or if you have one start taking it seriously. if you stack cans on shelves all day, be the best damn can stacker there is. have pride in what you do regardless of how menial you think it is. you are not better than your job.

8. Plan – write a plan of what you want to do. start daily, plan to shower, shave, update your resume, mop the floors etc. then look at a weekly planner, then months etc etc. finish with where you want to find yourself in 5 – 10 years and start wokring towards your goals.

86 said
Does this little game we call life not worth it anymore? 

Finally, I’ve reached a place in my head where I’m fine if something happens because I’m being reckless or unresponsible. Fuck the paperwork, and fuck all the appointments….shit is dumb. Yes i picked up smoking again, because fuck it why not? “Well it’ll prolong your-” yeah yeah i don’t want to prolong my life. Ive barely survived 29 years of this whirlwind of hell, i shudder to imagine where I’ll be another ten from now, or if I’ll even be alive. 

This is what i told my “doctor” today: i feel like shit, i hate everyone, and suicide looks more and more like a real option everyday. I smoke pot because i want to feel something other than what im feeling right now. Zoloft aint doing shit. Ive been taking it for years and i struggle to ddiscover its benefits to my mental health. I just take it because YOU tell me to. Because I’m supposed to trust you. Because you have my best interests in mind right? Right?

i said something like that anyways. Why I’m ranting about it on faygoluvers i dont know. Maybe it’s a cry for help, maybe im bored, i don’t know why i do anything anymore. So fuck it. im unhappy. Ive spent the last 2 hours looking around on craigslist for a slut to fuck. As if that will make me happy. Pfffft.

Don’t a lot of those types of pills have warnings about suicidal thoughts on the inserts and get blamed for mass shootings?  Dude, just smoke some weed and chill out.  Weed is probably better for your mental health anyways, but there are other things you should do like exercise and get fresh air.  Don’t underestimate that shit.

Novocaine, The Elusive said
actually no drugs are better for his mental health. weed is a depressant. if he thinks about topping himself sober, he will probably do it on weed. 

 

healthy life, thats how he will get better.

 

Also, get a positive hobby. play a sport or become an artist.

 

no video games, they are also horribly bad for you.

“Topping himself”?  That’s quite a talent, I must say.  

And I get really depressed after smoking weed.  “Maannn, I only have an eighth left. D:”

Btw, trying to pick up a sport or becoming an artist for a hobby and finding out you suck at it might be more depressing than weed supposedly is.  I agree with exercise and getting a hobby, but the rest of that sounds like personal rhetoric.  Perhaps his hobby isn’t a sport or an art form, but rather saving kittens or some shit like that.  

yeah i only said art and ports because that is what come sto my mind when i think about hobbies. if saving kittens is your thing, enjoy it.

i suck at music, doesnt stop me. ive now got 3 different projects on the go, havent played video games in over a month. nearly 2 i think. i actually feel amazing since picking up  a new hobby. its about taking your mind off life sucking not about being the next…. (fuck i dont know any sport people off the top of my head) michael jordan (winning, only took me like 3 minutes to figure out a person who is good at sports lol) or something like that. but playing a pick up game down at the local basketball court could be a good way to blow off an hour or 2 after work.

‘topping yourself’ well maybe we only say that in aus. but you should have picked it up from context.

it is all rhetoric. but, some people need to be told. its commonly known that eating healthy and living in a clean environmen will have a positive effect on your mental health. and teh amount of people i know who dont shower twice a day in unreal. take some pride in your appearance.

Novocaine, The Elusive said
yeah i only said art and ports because that is what come sto my mind when i think about hobbies. if saving kittens is your thing, enjoy it. Btw, just wanna clarify I wasn’t trying to attack you and if it came across like that, I apologize as it wasn’t my intent.  If 86 is wanting something to validate him and he’s not very good at his new hobby, it might not go so well.

i suck at music, doesnt stop me. ive now got 3 different projects on the go, havent played video games in over a month. nearly 2 i think. i actually feel amazing since picking up  a new hobby. its about taking your mind off life sucking not about being the next…. (fuck i dont know any sport people off the top of my head) michael jordan (winning, only took me like 3 minutes to figure out a person who is good at sports lol) or something like that. but playing a pick up game down at the local basketball court could be a good way to blow off an hour or 2 after work. Lol, 3 minutes? And I thought I was out of touch with shitty sports lol.  Do you play any instruments?

‘topping yourself’ well maybe we only say that in aus. but you should have picked it up from context. I did, I was attempting to be funny and make a gay joke.  My apologies. lol

it is all rhetoric. but, some people need to be told. its commonly known that eating healthy and living in a clean environmen will have a positive effect on your mental health. and teh amount of people i know who dont shower twice a day in unreal. take some pride in your appearance.  True, and rhetoric wasn’t the best word; I used it out of laziness to look up the word I wanted to use.  Environazis in America try to shame people into only bathing every couple days, which is nasty.  I need a long, super hot shower daily [and sometimes twice] or I feel nasty.

Dont worry I dont assume you wereattacking me. I take everything in stride but I can be kinda blunt sometimes.

I used to play clarinet and saxophobe in high school but not for well over 15 years. I used to produce hip hop beats but ive forgottwnhow to do all that now. Im relearning. When you start at something you usually auck at it. But practoce makes progress as they say.

I shower twice a day. But shortones. And I try to shave daily aswell.

Scruffy. I think he meant did you push yourself to the edge and come back. I thought eben you might pick that up. 

@86 I doubt anyone can make another choose to live, but assistance is out there if you want it. The Gathering might be a better option than a dirt nap.

http://www.everydayhealth.com/…..ssion.aspx

Miklo Velka said

86 said
Does this little game we call life not worth it anymore? 

You are one of the cooler posters on here man, I hope shit doesn’t get you down to low.

I’m dealing with a nightmare situation at my workplace right now, and have had some real dark thoughts lately too.

I’ve been put out of work the last few weeks because of an HR situation created by my ex girlfriend/coworker at my workplace.

I’ve been self medicating with weed and beer.

Trying to stay positive, and busy doing fun shit.

Hit the Jays/Yankees game last night, going to see Death Cab for Cutie in concert tonight.

sorry to hear this shit man, but words from the wise, never EVER (EVER) date a co-worker. it never ends well. EVER.

while i frown on self medicating and hope you dont sink to far, i am glad to see your remaining positive.

@stretchsquiggles – thank you for adding to my words, i ramble alot but sometimes i dont get very far into my point before going off on antoher tangent.

@86 – i hope you are all alright homie. If you really want to end it all, move to australia.

i live very close to an area that looks very similar to this. wih just as many thigns that can kill you.

may aswell enjoy the most beautiful country in the world if your gunna die.

drop bears are real. cover yourself in vegemite before you head into the wild.

but remember, nto everything is trying to kill you.

Ah yes, my old arch nemesis, depression. This is a topic I’ve become quite familiar with in the past few months. In December, a friend of mine checked out, and it fucked my head up something fierce. This guy ran a record label, was a really dope emcee, and was like superman to many people. He seemed to know everyone, and have a plan for everything, so when he hung himself a lot of people didn’t know what to think. Around 400 people showed up to his funeral, but he apparently just couldn’t shake the feeling that no one cared, and nothing mattered. Obviously, he was wrong. His closest friend has since gone awol after completing his self-imposed stay at a mental health facility. (I worry about him, but no one can seem to get a hold of him.) I’ve since been diagnosed with depression myself, and the meds only help a little. Staying off the Internet, particularly social media, getting exercise, practicing meditation, and learning to be kinder to myself are how I cope. You’re going to have to find what works best for you, but the aforementioned things won’t hurt you. Whatever you do, hang in there, life is a fucked up roller coaster most of the time, but it’s also full of wonder, and majesty. Take some time for yourself, and remember to be kind to yourself through all this; you matter more than you think.

Novocaine, The Elusive said

sorry to hear this shit man, but words from the wise, never EVER (EVER) date a co-worker. it never ends well. EVER

Sage like advice homie.

Bitches be crazy.