Robin Williams hoped for laughter after death, so this one's for him.

Man, I have never cried over the death of anyone that I've never met, let alone a celebrity. But finding this out made my heart sink and I cried like a little bitch. This fucking sucks..

LuckyNumbrXIII said

Slumerican(Just A Realist)502 said

 

I agree with you for the most part, but I wanna add a few things. I feel like depression in spurts is just a part of life they gave a name to in order to sell some pills. That is not to say that medication cant help depression, but I think we need to stop and think about what these pills do to your chemistry. They are meant for short term but I know people who have been on them for years and sometimes decades.

Im not trying to belittle mental illness, but i think our need for instant gratification in this country is a big part of why we get hooked on these pills. Yall ever stop for a minute and wonder, maybe we are supposed to be sad sometimes? Sadness can be a good thing sometimes.

There is a lot of truth to this... definitely.  Mostly what I have bolded.

 

However....

Depression is NOT synonymous with sadness.  In fact, I can say from experience with being depressed my whole life... it hits you when you're the happiest.  Not when you're sad.  Example (that happened to me): I win an award, I'm at the after party celebrating with peers.  SNAP... depression kicks in.  I'm not drinking or anything... just out of nowhere my brain says, "YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY.  You don't DESERVE to be happy."  Cue spiral into depression... I smile and hang out, but on the inside I'm dying and want it to be over, and I want to go home.  I feel everyone is enjoying themselves, but I don't... and I don't deserve it.  I'm a piece of shit, my brain is broken.  At some points, I even thought I was possessed by a demon.  

 

When my relatives died, I was sad.  That's important for grief.  You have to be sad to properly mourn loss.  

 

I took some pills, then another type after the first one didn't work anymore.  They told me I can take an additional pill to make the first one more effective, but I opted out.  

 

I think depression might actually have many different degrees.  Like, it's not you either are or you aren't.  I think maybe they should come up with a scale of depression, or something.  

Very well put man.I feel the same way.Thanks for explaining it.I didnt really want to get into it cuz most people dont understand anyway.

Fuck dude. That just makes it worse. RIP ROBIN WILLIAMS

the genie is finally free

Violentdope said

Slumerican(Just A Realist)502 said
Lucky I do know what its like. It plagued my whole life until I turned about 24. Maybe in my case my brain just rewired itself as I finished developing. I wasnt trying to say pills cant help and I know there are varying degrees of it. I was just saying some of us are just really sad and others really do have a chemical makeup problem. Most probably fall into the former but take these pills anyway.

OMD, That makes me like keanu even more. Dude still cant act though

I started taking anti depressants when I was about 16.I had no choice in the matter cuz my parents got me hooked on them. Going to different doctors to try and find out whats wrong with my kid. One doctor said. hey try riddilin, maybe your kid is ADHD. Took them pills, started tweeking,so I was like I don't like this shit.Then another doc game me an anti depressant and I was on them till I was almost 30. I didn't like the fact that I had to take a pill everyday to make me happy.They just made me apathetic and didn't really feel anything at all.So I stopped taking them and getting off that shit was the hardest thing in my life.Everyday for about a year I wanted to kill myself.I kept getting these brain zaps everyday, where it felt like someone was squeezing my brain with their hands and these synapse pops in my brain was hell.After about a year of that and medicating with alcohol and weed to keep my head from exploding...so now I am off meds and I smoke weed everyday(I dont drink) and I am happy.I have lost some weight,eating right and exercising also helps a lot.Nutrition is the key factor to disease.

Tight story, bro.  Thanks for sharing and I agree, nutrition, exercise and weed are better than some goofy ass Goopenthal as Hank Hill calls it.  Don't take that shit.  FDA cares about two things:  The frankenfood they deem fit for you to eat with all of it's chemicals feeding the pockets of the other thing they care about, pharmaceutical drugs.  Simple as that.

Anyways, RIP Robin Williams.  You were a bad ass, and while not my favorite comedian [I prefer Bill Hicks and George Carlin], One Hour Photo was fucking bad ass!

Violentdope said
@metalhorrorguitarwhat  no problem.I hope maybe it can help someone else who might be going through the same bullshit.Totally agree on the FDA bullshit.

I was never a big robin williams fan.I like most of his movies but was never a fan of his standup.Just not my style.Bill hicks and George know what the fuck is up!!!

I think we'd get along if we were drinking beers at a bar [not that I really drink all that much anymore].

Violentdope said

MetalHorrorGuitarWhat said

Violentdope said
@metalhorrorguitarwhat  no problem.I hope maybe it can help someone else who might be going through the same bullshit.Totally agree on the FDA bullshit.

I was never a big robin williams fan.I like most of his movies but was never a fan of his standup.Just not my style.Bill hicks and George know what the fuck is up!!!

I think we'd get along if we were drinking beers at a bar [not that I really drink all that much anymore].

neither do I but I'll pass you the virtual bong...

I don't smoke anymore but what the hell... /hitsit

I remember smoking with light weights cuz they've never gravity bonged lol.