September 29, 2023
7 Guests and Online “I’m a Fat Queer Woman Who Found My Chosen Family Among The Juggalos”

We got hit up by our homie Kitty Stryker who wrote a new article about her first experience with Juggalos.  Now, if you’re not familiar with Kitty, she considers herself a “fat queer woman”, and has always struggled to be accepted.  Her Juggalo boyfriend convinced her to go to the 18th Annual Gathering of the Juggalos in Oklahoma City.  This would be Kitty’s FIRST Juggalo event, so you can understand her apprehension.

Fast forward to summer of 2017.  Kitty got to experience the warm embrace of the Juggalo subculture, and hasn’t looked back since!  She has been an outspoken Juggalo advocate ever since!  Check out the article below and make sure to show some love to Kitty if you see her at a future event!


I’m a Fat Queer Woman Who Found My Chosen Family Among the Juggalos

The first time I went to an Insane Clown Posse (ICP) event—the Gathering of the Juggalos which spans a five-day music festival—I was trepidacious. My boyfriend loved the band, so I figured it would be a couple’s adventure, a one time deal I could enjoy once, even if I found the crowd misogynist and crass. I figured that I would attend the event, out in the humid stickiness of an Oklahoma water park, and that would be that.

My conception of Juggalos, a.k.a. fans of ICP and similar horrorcore bands like Twiztid and Ouija Macc, was that they were mostly young, apolitical white men who love violent lyrics and gutter humor. As a fat queer woman who prefers British dry comedies and leftist activism, what would I possibly find here that was for me? It would simply be a brief, if somewhat terrifying, glimpse into an alternative culture.

I never thought I would find my family among the Juggalos, but once I let go of my preconceived prejudices, I discovered a community that had more solidarity and heart than any I had been a part of before. Juggalos bowled me over with their generosity and love, even when I was new to the subculture. Coming from groups that were obsessed with gatekeeping (goths, geeks, and gamers, to name just a few), I entered the space fully prepared to have to prove myself on some level.

Instead, I felt more comfortable in my skin, and in my queerness, when hanging out with a bunch of dudes who liked to wear clown paint and cover themselves in the soda Faygo than ever before.

For queer people, representation in media is still woefully inaccurate. For fat queer women like myself, that’s especially true, even when in LGBTQ-centric spaces. We’re often only allowed to embody one marginalized identity at a time. I can exist in the fat community—where my queerness is too often pushed aside—or in the queer community, where my fatness renders me invisible. Being asexual on top of that ensures I feel even more like a stranger among people who are supposed to understand my struggles.

But the Juggalos embraced me immediately. At the first ICP event I attended, I wasn’t the fattest person in the area—I wasn’t even the fattest woman in the area!—and it didn’t matter at all. All around me were people of all body types, both with and without visible disabilities, all wearing bathing suits, eating hot dogs, laughing, dancing, and having a good time at this water park. A man, who I later learned was famous for his heaviness, cannonballed into the nearby lake to the good-spirited cheers of people on the shore. No one was policing anybody’s food intake or laughing at the way someone’s belly jiggled.

What about my queerness? I had heard tales that Juggalos were pretty homophobic, so I was still a little hesitant. I didn’t experience that at all. Quickly, I had some insightful discussions on bisexual visibility with Juggalos and Juggalettes alike, and was alerted that trans women were welcomed to compete in the Miss Juggalette Pageant because, after all, they were Juggalettes, too. The simplicity of that logic wasn’t lost on me, but it was refreshing considering how transmisogynist “liberal” women’s events are elsewhere.

Over those five days, I shared chilled beer and grilled cheeses with people from most of the 50 states, people whom I might not have sat with and listened to before coming to this event. I began to see how much we had in common, began to bond with blue-collar workers from Arizona and rappers from Illinois. As we hugged each other, screaming lyrics to our favorite 80s and 90s hits late into the night, I realized that this clown-faced group of weirdos felt like family. I wanted to hang out with them more.

So, I did. Being in the Bay Area queer scene and body-positive activism space had made me feel bad about myself in unexpected ways—bad about my body, bad about my introversion, bad about my dancing, bad about my lack of money. Being around Juggalos, by contrast, made me feel included. These people would give me the shirt off their back so I could feel part of the crew, and it was a wonderful feeling. They delighted in being outcasts, but were also quick to make sure you didn’t feel like an outsider.

I no longer had to pretend to be something I wasn’t in order to fit in. I was liked exactly for who I was, and it was intoxicating. I started going to more Juggalo concerts and events, weighing in on Juggalo forums, hanging out with my new Juggalo friends, listening to their music, sharing their art. If home is where the heart is, then mine is at an ICP concert, dripping in Faygo.

When we talk about chosen family, the implication is typically that one chooses new, non-biological family members. In many ways, though, the Juggalos chose me, and I’m grateful for that. Inspired by the freedom I found at the Gathering of the Juggalos, I began to let myself dress in ways that felt comfortable, rather than feeling pushed to wear whatever was currently deemed acceptable for fat femmes.

After all, Juggalos didn’t care if I showed up to a gathering in joggers and an ICP shirt. Like any loving, supportive family, they were simply glad I came.




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    Faygoluvers Comments

  1. the_emperor_smack

    Comment posted on Saturday, November 16th, 2019 08:07 pm GMT -5 at 8:07 pm

    Great news Scottie

    amazing stuff

  2. Don Ciccio

    Comment posted on Saturday, November 16th, 2019 08:11 pm GMT -5 at 8:11 pm

    What the hell?

  3. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Saturday, November 16th, 2019 09:00 pm GMT -5 at 9:00 pm

    Hold on hold on, she’s a fat QUEER woman who was convinced to go to a juggalo event by her BOYFRIEND?? come again?
    Also biological males who identify as women shouldn’t be allowed to enter any female competition.

  4. PanickinMannequin

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 04:49 am GMT -5 at 4:49 am

    Lol @ Fat Queer Woman. Those three words combined are absolutely hilarious. How does this bitch feel about the word bitch? Bitchy bitch. Keep guzzlin’ that cotton candy Faygo ya fat bitch.

  5. PanickinMannequin

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 04:51 am GMT -5 at 4:51 am

    Is her boyfriend a skinny straight male. Opposites attract 🤣

  6. Rotten J

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 07:03 am GMT -5 at 7:03 am

    Fagets need to slow their roll

  7. Noawareness

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 11:35 am GMT -5 at 11:35 am

    Ugh. I hate this generation so much.

  8. juggalotus42000

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 12:28 pm GMT -5 at 12:28 pm

    ‘hurrr durr hurr durr im gay look at me! im special!! hurr durr im gay!! im bringing my cancer into your sub culture whos listeners are ‘white males’ hurrr durrr, i identify as a csi detective gender fluid peacock! hurrrrrrrrr durr’

  9. Juggaloartist

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 12:57 pm GMT -5 at 12:57 pm

    I hope you guys all have heavy sarcasm cause y’all sound like assholes. Yeah, its new and weird and it doesnt make sense to some of us, but all kinds of shit we do doesn’t make sense to our grandparents. Chill the fuck out and be happy people still want to be included in the Fam. If I hadn’t been a Juggalo for 16 years and I saw the way “fam” bickers these days, I dunno…

    Or all of you are just burnin’ the shit out of her the way real Family does to each other, in which case ignore the egg on my face.

  10. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 01:19 pm GMT -5 at 1:19 pm

    We all know juggalotus is a fully grown retard. But help me understand something, how is she a queer woman when she got a boyfriend? The fuck?

  11. juggalotus42000

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 02:04 pm GMT -5 at 2:04 pm

    i dont know, why dont you tell us bf mikey?

  12. Slumerican502

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 04:09 pm GMT -5 at 4:09 pm

    Why cant y’all just let someone be happy? Fucking miserable cock suckers, the lot of ya.

  13. BlackSand

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 08:51 pm GMT -5 at 8:51 pm

    Props on going to the Gathering with an open mind and experiencing the magic of it all, glad you had a good time and met some cool peeps. I’ve never done a Gathering myself, it’s alotta effort to travel that kinda distance for me or I’m just too lazy.

  14. Pigg

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 10:27 pm GMT -5 at 10:27 pm

    Buncha boomers in this thread.

  15. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Sunday, November 17th, 2019 11:16 pm GMT -5 at 11:16 pm

    Yo I ain’t a boomer. But everyone seems to be dodging my very valid question, if she’s got a boyfriend then why she referring to herself as queer? Don’t make no sense.

  16. murdacloak

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 03:38 am GMT -5 at 3:38 am

    Lol all the snowflake juggaboomers in here getting their feelings hurt. Just let people be happy and maybe you all wont be so TRIGGERED. Its actually kind of funny watching you douchebags get so mad. Keep it up homies whoop whoop 🖕🏼

  17. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 04:51 am GMT -5 at 4:51 am

    I have no hatred for the trans community, but anyone who thinks there’s nothing wrong with people who were born with biologically male bodies entering into female competitions is ok needs to get their head checked.

  18. Noawareness

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 05:00 am GMT -5 at 5:00 am

    I don’t give a fuck if someone identifies as a green banana with piss soaked vagina lips. That’s your business and its your right to write a fucking article about it and let everyone know how you chose to deal with the trauma in your childhood. Its also my right to not want to hear about how every teenager who’s dad didn’t hug them enough, decided to dress as a girl and suck dicks to get over their shit. They have the right to tell everyone about it, I have the right to not care about that bullshit. We live in a pretty cool world where they can be the new “vegans” and tell everyone they meet and I am free to not want to hear it. I love how you all act like everything is black and white, like that. Just because people don’t wanna hear shit, doesn’t mean they’re hating.

  19. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 01:37 pm GMT -5 at 1:37 pm

    Noawareness – for a guy who “doesn’t want to hear about this shit” it sure seems strange that you would not only click on the article a first time which would indicate that you do indeed want to hear about this shit, but you also came back for seconds, so you can understand my scepticism when I see you write something like “I don’t want to hear this shit from the article that I clicked on multiple times”………sure you don’t buddy.

  20. juggalotus42000

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 11:00 am GMT -5 at 11:00 am

    @noawareness well said and i agree 100 percent, but to me this shit pisses me off, they’re just using the juggalo community to get ‘accepted’ Before they woke up and decided they identified as the brave little toaster they couldnt give a fuck less about juggalos and probably mocked us, these people invade a culture and then start trying to change shit and make rules , just look at what has happened to video games and movies in this fucking bullshit ‘woke’ culture, these people are pure 100 percent aids an destory everything they touch

  21. juggalotus42000

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 11:02 am GMT -5 at 11:02 am

    @mikey to anwser your question some of these freaks are genderless or both fucking male and female at the same time and changes daily so one day their boyfriend is their girlfriend and the next it switches

  22. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 01:42 pm GMT -5 at 1:42 pm

    God now I’m getting answers from Juggalotus. If it means anything Juggalotus this is the least retarded you’ve ever sounded. It never mentions her being “gender fluid” does it? (Tbh I didn’t read the whole thing because it’s not that interesting) The idea of being gender fluid is an absolute joke, I can understand someone feeling like they’re the opposite gender of what their body represents but the idea that you can switch back and forth between genders day by day is an absolute joke and people playing that stupid game should wake up and smell the roses. Scientific fact = there are only 2 genders.

  23. PanickinMannequin

    Comment posted on Monday, November 18th, 2019 10:46 pm GMT -5 at 10:46 pm

    Who the hell is Mikey arguing with? Lol.

  24. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Tuesday, November 19th, 2019 12:14 am GMT -5 at 12:14 am

    Not arguing with anyone, I’m staying my point of view with a few facts sprinkled in there.

  25. OneLeggedJuggalo

    Comment posted on Tuesday, November 19th, 2019 04:33 am GMT -5 at 4:33 am

    I remember back in the day when ‘gender fluid’ was why I had to wash my blankets.

  26. juggalotus42000

    Comment posted on Tuesday, November 19th, 2019 04:58 am GMT -5 at 4:58 am

    @mikey thanks man, that means alot coming from you! maybe your stunning intellect is rubbing off on me???

    @oneleggedjuggalo HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

  27. King Lucem Ferre

    Comment posted on Tuesday, November 19th, 2019 11:04 am GMT -5 at 11:04 am

    What you do in your own bedroom is your own business but I personally think being fat is wrong and I don’t approve of the fat people.

  28. JuggaloSquib

    Comment posted on Thursday, November 21st, 2019 11:12 am GMT -5 at 11:12 am

    I cant help but remember Struggalo Circus. It’s the group she made so that she and her antifa friends could attend the March. She spent lots of time telling juggalos horror stories about protests so that they would be scared, and then donate money to her efforts.

    She is a garbage person using the juggalo name for personal game and should fuck herself to death.. this isn’t about any of the 5 random things she identifies as, it’s about her toxic personality.

    Fuck kitty Stryker.

  29. mikeysinder

    Comment posted on Friday, November 22nd, 2019 12:30 am GMT -5 at 12:30 am

    Nailed it, if you a juggalo you a juggalo, you don’t have to attach 7 different labels to it, just be a juggalo. If what you’ve said is true she sounds whack as fuck, leftists have a tendency to be whack as fuck.

  30. kukluxklown

    Comment posted on Saturday, November 23rd, 2019 02:52 pm GMT -5 at 2:52 pm




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