Hi. I’m D. VilleN (the artist formerly known as Surr3al, Amerikilla from Siccness)

I’ve been a Recovering Ranting Juggalo for 15+ years..

So I’ve started noticing that my reactions to the comments section on the FLH site just keep getting longer and longer.. and I haven’t been on a Forum in a long time b.c I have a tendency to get emersed in it (was a long time member of Siccness from like ’04 idk if they’re still up and running anymore).

Anyways I guess I’m getting to the point and see the shit, and I’ve been holding all these trivial opinions of mine in for years. And as my circle of friends/Juggalo friends has gotten smaller; I’m forced to just hold it all in. til all my angry opinions are getting blue and sore and hurts when I sit down. U know when it’s so bad u just feel it in the pit of ur stomach. And u just feel to the need to yell or shout at people. I guess I’m relapsing and I’m bout spray a Fresh Load of “Real shit” Rant all over this Forum Viewing Fam and even your Ugly Ass Troll Faces; so listen HEE-UMP

There’s always so much hate and trolling and bitching and picking sides I wonder if any of us even like each other or have anything in common anymore. I scroll thru posts and I think , well at least we all still enjoy bitching and gossiping once Faygoluvers. Maybe I’m just being cynical, but I feel like ever since the Twiztid departure everyone just hates on each other for w.e they listen to, and we all forgot about Juggalo Family and the fact that we banded together b.c we always were shit on for what we listened too. Maybe some of us feel like we’re too old for it. And I guess there wasnt as much access to a wide variety of crazy/different music back in the late 90s, like there is now. but now it’s seems since we all listen to different artists we think for w.e reason are superior to others , and think we’re superior for knowing/liking those artists. Forgetting that we used to be judged cuz EVERYBODY ELSE IN THE WHOLE GD WORLD thought they were superior to us and our music . If you were listening back then I guess. Maybe I’m just being nostalgic , but I don’t see the love and the pride that I used to . Alot of Fam might talk love when speaking to the outside world but online or to each other it’s like just a bunch of Self Loathing Juggalos. Idk if it’s the niave younger kids or the maybe some of us getting older and just being so fucking jaded . Sorry man it’s just on my mind a lot and I just get so sick of the pettiness of some people. It just seems like we’re becoming what we hated and it’s not the music’s fault. It’s not ICPs, Twiztid, Young Wicked, Tech N9nes ; their all just people trying to get by behind it all. But Juggalos, we made ourselves. And we’re going to destroy ourselves if we don’t stop trashing each other every chance we get. Because of what YOU may or may not listen to… Lol it’s just so… Baffling, idiotic, pointless, counter -productive, but more than anything; it’s so fucking hypocritical … I know I can’t be the only one thinking this…