SPOOKYtheFUNGI said

1. Im happy for you, that you got a rock solid wife. Shit would be horrible if you had to deal wit this shit by yourself. Remember change is inevitable and difficult during your life here on earth. Im glad that sumtin as simple as a juggalo forum helps you be distracted from the chaos of the world, whereas others would spend money on a bad addiction, so consider flh your FREE world. You definitely need to live in the now cuz tomorrow is not promised, and the past keeps you going in continuous self destructive circles. Try thinkin like this, picture you goin to bed, as you going into hibernation in a cocoon, and when you wake up the next day you are reborn into a new creature, wit a whole new/different perspective of this beautiful world. Thats an easy way to live in the present. Lifes a rollercoaster, so enjoy the ride and expect the ups and downs, wit no fucks givin.

1. I just really hope now that you got this off your chest, you dont repetitively post about these issues on the forums. Its your place to escape that shit, not dwell on the past, be free. Not tryin to be a dick or deter you from voicing yourself, just saying its tiring to watch someone run on a hamster wheel all the time, and not healthy for you either. Lifes too short to be comfortable living in misery, so get up and make this world yours. Keep your head up and stay positive, law of attraction is real, if you want it to be real. MCL

  

I apologize. I hope it didn’t upset anyone. I will not post about it, I was only doing it to fill people in I didn’t look at it from your perspective.

Slumerican502 said
I think you should post what you want if it helps. It can be incredibly hard to talk to people in real life about your problems because you feel like you are a burden. I hope everything works out for yall. God damn, life is one fickle bitch ain’t it?

Shit like this is why Ive always scoffed at the idea of karma. There is no justice, just a bunch of heartache with sporadic moments of real happiness in between. Try to hold on to those moments when they do come. Makes it all worth the ride.  

Well, yeah it helps. Don’t want to be a downer though either. Believe it or not these forums make my life so much better. To some that may be sad….but for me nowadays that is a beautiful thing. I can come here, speak my mind and get shit off my chest with minimal judgement.

Of course my past reputation here apparently left some bad tastes in peoples mouths but I am working my hardest to alleviate those ideas of “who” people think I am. Hey, that’s my fault. I did that, fucked up head or not making excuses is not the solution the solution is to show you guys that actually isn’t me.

Much love man and thanks for the support. I am going to continue to live and love life until I kick that doctors prognosis in the fucking balls homie. Some of my posts may seem depressing but I assure you there are not meant that way. They are only meant to let people know what up.

Thanks for the continued support guys. 

Thank you all for the continued support. It is going to be a long hard road especially for all those who are putting up with me lol. At least we are on the right track here though.