Noah Fence said
Mental illness is rough. I don’t have the same kinds of problems as you with regards to delusions or hallucinations but i suffer from intrusive thoughts and what not.   

Mood, don’t tell my psychiatrist but I get intrusive thoughts as well. Like, when I’m changing strings on my guitars I pick up my wire cutter and just picture myself cutting my fingers off. its the worst (my psychologist knows, but nobody else)

Gorey Corey said
First off props to you iris for opening up about this shit, i know sometimes talking about personal shit is tough, at least for me. I have ptsd and anxiety (hate saying that bc now a days it seems like every one has it or says they do sometimes feels like a cop out) but i do. For example today at work my anxious brain was kicking my ass and i was getting chest pains and breaking out in sweats for no damn reason, sometimes i feel like everyone there is plotting against me to get me fired and i get all paranoid over it. I like to just get it out in the open tho and confront it head on and use humor to diffuse the situation like I’ll say some shit like “well guys i guess I’m getting fired soon so fuck it” but then someone reassures me everything’s fine and I’m actually doing great. I know it’s not as severe as what ur going through right now but i used to be a helluva lot worse than i feel now. It’s all about making small steps towards progress, ur not alone, especially in this juggalo shit despite the assholes. Ur still young and you’ll find your way at least know that I’m rooting for you. Stay up!  

Aww thanks. You’re really sweet.

I sympathize with your problems as well, a lot of the people in my life (like my current boyfriend) have had ptsd, and boy if it doesn’t tend to come up at the worst possible time (like trying to have sex with somebody and they just start crying).

For anyone who it may interest I find the best thing that helps a lot of people during a flashback are the words “you’re not in that place anymore, you are not going back, its okay now, its the past, it may as well have not happened at all (though don’t say that last one if it involved the death of people, like if they watched somebody die or something), its okay, your okay.” its fresh in my mind because it happened to somebody today and I was the only one around. I’ve had a “flashback” before, but like, once, and I think I was high, could be wrong.  

krunkazphuk said

Iris The Tranny juggalette said

…I only got on meds last year. Also when it comes to drugs I’ve used weed, and well the summer of 2016 was filled with sex and vague memories of taking some shit I didn’t even know the names of. And seeing as the whole time was a huge blur and I struggle to fully remember anything that happened maybe I have really gotten fucked off drugs. But yeah, that’s unrelated to my paranoia…    

That statement’s one hell of a leap of faith.

Iris The Tranny juggalette said

…Anyone relate? lol… I am a pretty solid actor.

I relate to your situation in that my sister and my mom (two individual people despite me living in the deep & dirty south) are diagnosed schizophrenics. They are predatory in that they like acting too, or rolling as many well-meaning people as possible to feed whatever narcissistic demon happens to be riding them that day (that was poetic license to rile those excessively literal fucktards who need clarification on everything). Hope you remember that we all have choices, @Iris The Tranny juggalette

Your environment can be a choice (toxic, non-toxic, etc.) and owning your actions fucking rox. Hope to see u at the GOTJ. Maybe u can try to roll me and I can LMMFAO BEOTCH! Ur cute af.

  

Not sure which part of that you thought was the leap of faith, there were many there lmao. But I’m guessing you meant using shit I didn’t know the names of, and that was because I reaaaaaaaaaly didn’t care nor think I’d survive the year, so, anything I did to myself was all the same to me.

Also, biiiiiiiiiig oooooooooooof, narcissists with mental health issues are the worst fucking thing ever, because if you call them out on it people will call you a bad person for it, though I’m magically exempt from this because I have problems of my own, people are dumb lmao. 

As for taking responsibility, I do, “I’m fucking stupid”, there, done

Hope to see you there too.

oh and

krunkazphuk said

Ur cute af.

OwO