If your gonna do it, do it outside or something!

Your not alone man, shits fucked up everywhere. Struggle with us, scrub.

You cant leave unless you take some of us with you… Its not fair man…

Where you live at? You know we got family everywhere.

Similar thing happened to me last year, my fiancé, the love of my life totally blindsided out of nowhere like an RKO!

It was shocking dude, I couldn’t believe it. I’m still not over it and it’s been 10 months since it happened.

I wanted to die so badly, every day was a nightmare, a living hell I couldn’t wake up out of.

However I have slowly found myself again and new things, exciting things have eventually showed up in my life.

Things I’d never of wanted to miss out on and opportunities I have created that I never would have been able to do if I was still in a relationship with her.

It will take time but maybe there is a dream even a small one you haven’t done in your life, that deep down you always wanted to.

Why not give it a shot? What have you got to lose? If you are going to die soon anyway why not go out with one last attempt to live out a dream you never truly went for?

For me, one of my dreams was to get paid being a DJ, I bought a pair of decks off eBay and the guy who sold then to me had his own mobile DJ business, he asked me if I was looking for work and a few weeks later his was giving me paid gigs all over the city I live in.

I’ve been having the best time spinning tunes for all types of people and I never would of tried if I had of stayed with that time sucking bitch.

I shot the man my number. Anyone else try reaching out? Anyone heard anything?

Not much you can do for a guy in his headspace right now. He’s gonna do whatever he is going to do. Nothing we say is gonna make him feel any different.

Hopefully he finds something to hold onto as he goes through the stages of grief.

David_Black said

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And what the fuck dude, You’re from Texas? Go outside, breathe and be happy it’s not Indiana. These worthless fucks……  

bozodklown & I are from Texas. I think Zero’s in a colder place. Aren’t u @Zero ?

So you would rather she stay in a relationship with you when she is not happy and wants to leave? Is that what you want? For her to stay around and fake it? That’s selfish.

Or would you rather instead she stick around and cheat on you and make it fucking worse than what it is already? Are you saying you would rather women cheat on you and suck up money and time from you rather than keep your dignity and self respect while being alone?

Dude, you are worth more than that. You need to take this time to be alone and just work on yourself. Change your life. Get a new haircut. Change your facial hair. Change your diet. Get more physically active. Read more books. Go to more art galleries. I dunno. Pick something. Get a hobby to distract yourself. Look forward, not back. You don’t need outside validation to justify staying alive if you have no friends or family. You already have value to yourself because you have potential. AND THAT IS ENOUGH to stay alive. Everyone can go through a rough patch. Juggalos ain’t supposed to give up. Remember Fearless Fred Fury’s motto? FIGHT BACK!

Please watch this video from atheism-is-unstoppable.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjYQdjp5wdM