Lucem Ferre said
Thanks for the condolences, but I’m fine. To clear his name since he did sober up before getting married, he didn’t OD on heroin, I only assumed that. It was pain killers.

 

To me he was already dead. Everybody talks about how he’d changed but nobody ever comes to see me, nobody invites me to the family parties, I didn’t even know about his wedding until the day after.

still sucks.  

what gets to me is, whenever i hear something like this, it reminds me that chances are someday ill be saying it about my sister.  but there just isnt anything that i can do about it, its all on her, at this point.  

some night, you and me should hang out for a few hours, drinking fine alcohols and talking about life and death.  

Lucem Ferre said
I found it weird how I have no religion, no real idea, a few theories, but no real idea on what happens when we die, no comfortable lie to make me feel better about it, yet I still seem to be more comfortable with death than most people around me.

 

My mom is telling me to keep Jesus in my thoughts and talking about how he’s up their now with my grandmother but even if Christianity, out of some magical mystical logic defying miracle, was real that is still just a comfortable lie because he didn’t believe in god, he rejected god and that is the one sin God will never forgive so he’d be in hell.

I am the only non-religious one in a VERY religious family, so it is horrible to hear them talk about heaven and all of that. Sometime I feel like my mom talks about my dad being in heaven and all of that to try and guilt trip me into being Christian. It’s not fair and it is annoying.

Honestly, I (and probably your too, but I won’t make assumptions) think nothing happens when we die. We go back to the matter we came from. Eventually everyone will forget about us, but we will be dead so we won’t know and it won’t matter. It will be like before we were born.