I’ve been thinking about this all day Pig…

It’s kind of hard for me to really give my opinion on this. Because I really don’t know what the answer is. This happens to me too. I usually don’t stuck in these slumps for long but recently I have. This one has lasted for at least 3 weeks maybe four. I used to be really bad and I was younger but now I’m not. Most of the time these slumps only last for like a day or two. I think for me it has something to do with my job and the Gathering somehow. I think sometimes I forgot how hard I have to work at being happy or something. I just need a vacation I think. Some sort of catharsis you know I’m saying dawg.

Stress. Tension. A form of Seasonal Affective Disorder. Chemical imbalance. Diet. Exercise. General malaise. 

Also, never rule out The Human Condition itself. Sometimes the simultaneous reality and the unknowing reality of what we are, and what the world is, can weigh you down. We are never given a break duriNg life. Forces are physically pushing you down. Gravity. The world spinning nonstop. Noises of man and man-made things.

Nature and sunshine are killer fucking helpers for mood and sanity. Sometimes a nice evening summer walk in the woods can shift the sadness to a more tolerable part of yourself. It’s never eliminated, just made more bearable.

BayAreaShaman had a good point about working hard to stay happy. 

What I’ve learned? Being happy is not for lazy people. You have to strengthen your payche, and exercise it like a mental muscle. 

NothiNg is easier than giving up. Doing the drug addict/thief thing. Cutting yourself. Becoming an asshole is lazy as well. It’s easy to end conversations with cynical outlooks and cruel words.

How old are you? I went through a crazy fit of depression a few years ago around my late 24-early 25 that seemingly came out of no where. I was having panic attacks by the dozens and breathing problems and a whole laundry list of shit but they could never find anything wrong with me. I actually talked to a psychiatrist for some sessions and she explained that around mid-20s is when the male brain reaches full maturity and that sometimes emotions and shit from your past that you may not even be aware of anymore can pop up and cause problems. I think Violent J and Monoxide both freaked out around their mid-20s too.
She prescribed me pills but I told her I’m wasn’t taking any psychotropic drugs so she basically told me I’d have to buckle down, remember it’s just emotions from the past that were never checked flaring up, and that more than likely it would eventually pass, and it did. I spent like 3 or 4 months feeling so down that I couldn’t get out of bed and having all these panic attacks then it just started to lessen a little more each day. Eventually I forced myself to go out with friends and do shit and got back to a normal functioning state.

My child hood was pretty fucked thanks to a junkie piece of shit dad so I think I definitely had a lot of negative emotions from the past going haywire around that time. It might be something similar.