8:32 pm
June 13, 2013
I believe the song "Lost In The Music" was one of the few gems that came out of MDP. The song is me, all around. I'm always listening to music, Psy related and not. And whenever the headphones come off, I roll my eyes and say, "Okay. Time to deal with a bunch of crap I don't care about and stresses me out." Sometimes I think it cruel to have to ever shut it off, the music, I mean. I don't wanna hear the news, just a bunch of bickering and violence, same as it always is. Russia has nukes, or maybe China does, or maybe Obama is with the Illuminati, planning some silent take over. Or maybe they brought those people infected by Ebola from Africa here to the U.S. to let it get out and later say it was just an accident. Blah. Blah Blah. Blah. I don't know and I no longer care. Whatever will happen is going to happen and there isn't anything I can do about it, I'm just a lower class citizen, and more recently had my status of Juggalo labeled "gang related" by the biggest gang in the country. So should I be wearyof wearing my hatchet chain in public? Should I care? Well I don't.
So I usually keep music very close by, like my MP3 for out in public places, in my pocket. Just to drown it all out when I need to. There's just too much negativity. I don't wanna hear it all the time. Example: I enjoy internet like everyone else, but then if you try to be serious or sound passionate about something, a troll or hateful person will post whatever negativity they can about you to just get a reaction out of you. What good does that do? Does it boost your rep? Put hair on your chest, inflate your ego? I mean if you disagree or whatever, can't you just say why you disagree, and leave it at that? Why does insulting someone have to be necessary? Once again, I put my music on and forget. Because no amount of hours spent arguing for your opinion over another will ever accomplish anything. Especially with a person who doesn't care about what you're saying anyway. It's just another argument, that will be forgotten,more gasoline for an already roaring fire. I've learned to just let it go. Same with all this shit going on in the world, I just don't give it my time anymore.
So this is me, living in blissful ignorance and still not really happy. I'm thankful for the things I have, but possessions are just things. Maybe having alot of possessions makes you happy? Maybe look at possessions like they're awards you've earned for going to work and working hard? I always try to work smart, not hard. Because let's be honest, when we get to a certain spot in our lives, no one wants to bust their ass bagging groceries or sweating buckets in a hot foundry to just get home to get back to relaxing with a beer or joint to enjoy their music or games or whatever. You just want to do that, not having to deal with all the bullshit.
This little essay is the definition of being lost internally and confused still at an older age.
My Morton's List quest said to write an essay and then share it. So there it was. Karma Always.
"I Just Wanna Hide Inside My Own Private Hell"- Boondox
9:09 pm
July 11, 2012
I was just talking about this with my girl yesterday.I dont give a shit whats happening in the world anymore. Whatever happens happens and there is nothing I can do about it, so why waste my energy stressing about shit I cant change.Fuck it!!.lol
Lost in the music is me 100% too..great fuckin song!! agree with arguing on the internet is a waste of energy.I will not participate in childish banter.
Good shit homie!! I concur.
11:47 pm
August 14, 2014
Violentdope said
I was just talking about this with my girl yesterday.I dont give a shit whats happening in the world anymore. Whatever happens happens and there is nothing I can do about it, so why waste my energy stressing about shit I cant change.Fuck it!!.lolLost in the music is me 100% too..great fuckin song!! agree with arguing on the internet is a waste of energy.I will not participate in childish banter.
Good shit homie!! I concur.
I love looking at what's going on in the world. Usually gets me outta musical slumps and shit when I start playing heartlessly or whatever, I'll pay attention to whats going on in the media and it'll piss me off and make me play with more anger.
I'm the neck cutta and I'm one block away...
OCJ_Brendan said
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12:24 am
July 11, 2012
MetalHorrorGuitarWhat said
Violentdope said
I was just talking about this with my girl yesterday.I dont give a shit whats happening in the world anymore. Whatever happens happens and there is nothing I can do about it, so why waste my energy stressing about shit I cant change.Fuck it!!.lolLost in the music is me 100% too..great fuckin song!! agree with arguing on the internet is a waste of energy.I will not participate in childish banter.
Good shit homie!! I concur.
I love looking at what's going on in the world. Usually gets me outta musical slumps and shit when I start playing heartlessly or whatever, I'll pay attention to whats going on in the media and it'll piss me off and make me play with more anger.
cool you turn it into something positive. I just am tired of hearing people bitching and complaining about shit so I just dont participate in it.
12:40 am
July 11, 2012
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May 4, 2014
11:11 am
December 3, 2012
Thanks for sharing dude. I just wanna add in, for me, no amount of material things are ever gonna fill that hole. It's not achieving goals that makes us content, it's the journey to the goal and the purpose that we give ourselves that gives us that fleeting happiness.
I'm reminded of that line in the movie Blow: "Life passes people by while they are making grand plans for it".
I think it is soooo important to live in the moment. That's not to say don't plan for the future, but try not to worry about it too much and let go of the past.
As far as the song goes, I agree with 86 on it's meaning. Especially the line "and if-my hearing was ever to go-mass murder would be inevitable". It still sends chills down my spine every time I hear it. Beautiful song.
There's a gateway in our minds
That leads somewhere out there, far beyond this plane
Where reptile aliens made of light
Cut you open and pull out all your pain
Sturgill Simpson- Turtles All The Way Down
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I always got music playing and headphones on. If I'm at work or if I'm at home or when I'm out taking a walk. I got music playing and it helps to escape through the bullshit. But with my anxiety and all my other issues upstairs, I need to escape my mind somehow so I'll preoccupy myself with a keyboard or play X-Box. The worlds fucked.
4:29 pm
August 14, 2014
GanjaGoblin said
I always got music playing and headphones on. If I'm at work or if I'm at home or when I'm out taking a walk. I got music playing and it helps to escape through the bullshit. But with my anxiety and all my other issues upstairs, I need to escape my mind somehow so I'll preoccupy myself with a keyboard or play X-Box. The worlds fucked.
You play keyboard? Did I read that correctly?
I'm the neck cutta and I'm one block away...
OCJ_Brendan said
Haha I hope everyone enjoys their Leg Diamond limited edition Beach towels...
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Violentdope said
MetalHorrorGuitarWhat said
GanjaGoblin said
I dabble. I get bored easily.That's awesome dude. If I had a keyboard I'd look into scoring horror films.
John Carpenter mixed with They Live? Fucking awesome! Kinda interesting that John Carpenter never really made movies that actually recouped costs after They Live... /conspiracytheory
A few did, but most of the time they barely broke even or lost money. That and they were mostly awful as well. I mean, Vampires with Jon Bon Jovi? Wtf was he smoking...
I'm the neck cutta and I'm one block away...
OCJ_Brendan said
Haha I hope everyone enjoys their Leg Diamond limited edition Beach towels...
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